I had a feeling so peculiar that this pain would be for evermore

 I've been down since July

Motion capture put me in a bad light 

I replay my footsteps on each stepping stone 

Trying to find the one where I went wrong

Writing letters addressed to the fire 

And I was catching my breath 

Staring out an open window catching my death

And I couldn't be sure

I had a feeling so peculiar 

That this pain would be for evermore

Guess I'm feeling unmoored

Can't remember what I used to fight for 

I rewind the tape but all it does is pause

On the very moment all was lost 

Sending signals to be double crossed 

And I was catching my breath

Barefoot in the wildest winter 

Catching my death

And when I was shipwrecked I thought of you

In the cracks of light I dreamed of you 

It was real enough to get me through 

But I swear you were there 

And I was catching my breath 

Floors of a cabin creacking under my step

And I couldn't be sure 

I had a feeling so peculiar 

This pain wouldn't be for evermore

I think I've seen this film before

Siempre sentí certezas. 

Toman mi cuerpo y me aseguran algo 

Que simplemente sé

La última vez que vi a mi abuelo

Fui la única en saber realmente 

Que era la última vez

Nunca tan importantes 

Como esa ocasión 

Pero están, esas certezas

Siempre supe que pertenezco en otro lado

En otra parte de este mundo

Nunca supe el por qué

Pero sé que no es acá 

Y quizás cuando mis tristezas aparecen

Las certezas también lo hacen 

Y veo todo en algo tan borroso

Y tan cristalino a la vez

Me frustro, a los 20 pensé dejar todo

Y pude correrme de ahí 

Pero hoy siento que vuelvo

Sin los demonios pero vuelvo

A ese lugar de incertidumbres 

Donde la certeza es una sola 

No es acá

Writing letters adressed to the fire

 Y quizás lo buscó, lo provocó 

Quizás aún no aprendo a estar bien

Creo haber dejado esos sentimientos atrás

Pero vuelve cada tanto

Disfrazado de furia

Ese dolor tan dentro, tan lejos

Desbordo una vez más

Justo cuando creía estar estable

Los hábitos se vuelven viejos amigos

No necesitan permiso para pasar

Hey december 

Guess I'm feeling unmoored

Can't remember 

What I used to fight for

I rewind the tape, but all it does is pause

On the very moment all was lost

   I had a feeling so peculiar, that this pain would be for evermore

In times like these

Esos días en los que es difícil respirar

Esos días en los que es difícil existir 

Todavía vuelven, nublados, arañando

Ruegan entrar en mi, nuevamente 

Los dejo, solo un ratito

Acaparan en segundos

Desaparecen como llegan 

Grises, ya no negros

Difíciles, pero más fáciles 

Que antes

Sola sigue siendo más fácil

¿Por qué siempre es más? 

Los busco, lo persigo 

Incluso ahora

Tanto tiempo después

Quizás es para lo que sirvo

Sola, gris

De alguna manera me siento mejor

Así 

You know it stills hurts underneath my scars 

from when they pull me apart

At least I'm trying

I've been having a hard time adjusting 

I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting 

I didn't know if you'd care if I came back 

I have a lots of regrets about that 

Pulled the car off the road to the lookout 

Could've followed my fears all the way down

And maybe I don't quite know what to say

But I'm here in your doorway

I just wanted you to know

That this is me trying 

They told me all of my cages were mental 

So I got wasted like all my potential

And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad 

I have a lot of regrets about that 

I was so ahead the curve, the curve became a sphere 

Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here 

Pourin' out my heart to a stranger, but I didn't pour the whiskey 

And it's hard to be at a party when I feel like an open wound 

It's hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you 

And I just wanted you to know that this is me trying 

Maybe I don't quite know what to say

But I just wanted you to know that this is me trying 

Hell was the journey but it brought me heaven

Time curious time 

Gave me no compasses, gave me no signs

Were there clues I didn't see? 

Time mystical time 

Cutting me open, then healing me fine 

Were there clues I didn't see? 

Time, wondrous time 

Gave the blues and then purple-pink skies

And It's cool, baby, with me

And isn't it just so pretty to think 

All along there was some invisible string 

Tying you to me? 

A string that pulled me 

Out of all the wrong arms, right into that dive bar

Something wrapped all of my past mistakes in barbed wire 

Chains around my demons 

Wool to brave the seasons 

One single thread of gold tied me to you

I could never give you peace

 I never had the courage of my convictions, as long as danger is near

And it's just around the corner darlin', cause it lives in me 

No, I could never give you peace

But I'm a fire and I'll keep your brittle heart warm

Would it be enough if I could never give you peace? 

Your integrity makes me seem small

You paint dreamscapes on the wall

And you know that I'd...

Swing with you for the fences

Sit with you in the trenches

Give you my wild, give you a child

Give you the silence that only comes when two people understand each other 

Is it enough?  

I'd give you my sunshine, give you my best

But the rain is always gonna come if you're standin' with me 

Would it be enough if I could never give you peace?